Monday, April 29, 2013

Covenant Book Review


Covenant is a spiritual masterpiece that paints a vivid picture of God’s covenant with His children and the covenants we are supposed to have in our spirit-bound relationships. Within the pages of this book you will find that these couples were committed and dedicated to God and to each other. However, you will also see how the jealousy or covetousness of the relationships of others can cause us to do things that are not pleasing to God. Inez also demonstrated how we do pay the penalty for our sin, as sin does separate us from God. She in turn shows us how God can restore the repented sinner and how He will take what Satan meant for bad and make it all good. The highlight of this story was Damaris and Preston. This couple had waited on God to send them the one God had prepared for them. The relationship between the two of them portrays the relationship that every spiritual being would love to have with their mate/good thing! Their love flowed from heart to heart because it was ordained by God. This couple waited on God in every aspect of their relationship. Inez’s Covenant is an absolute must read!

Link to purchase: 

http://tinyurl.com/8y6n79a

Review by: Author Sandra Peterson-Lott, Temporary Power Outages

Monday, April 22, 2013

Day 4 was NO Day 3 - Where's the Meds?


Days 1-3 seemed to be tolerable as far as pain goes (perhaps due to the fact that I did not miss a dose of oxy). The major issue is the squirts of liquid that are attempting to shoot into my nose. Other than that, day 3 was uneventful. Still not eating, but hey ... I can stand to miss a meal or 9 (LOL).

I had not been sleeping well, as lying down is uncomfortable due to breathing issues. Last night, I get to sleep waking periodically to sip on water. I even slid down, a bit, to get a bit more comfy. What a BAD choice. I missed my pain meds, last night and I woke up in some crazy pain. My tongue, my gums, my jaw, my ears, my throat and my neck hurt. There was swelling and so much discomfort that I was annoyed that I chose to sleep over taking the meds. I will not make that mistake again, tonight.

The back of my throat looks like a dandelion convention. My uvula is swollen and looks attached to my tonsil bed. I didn't know what all that 'white' stuff was ... did some reading and it appears to be scabbing.

I took pain meds without thought of coating stomach, because my mouth felt so horrible. My temperature got up to 100 degrees, today and I just felt like crap. After 3 doses of meds, the pain seems to have gotten better. I am now back to my itching tolerable pain self ... smiling. OH yeah, my voice just sounds like I am congested. Doesn't hurt to talk, like some people have expressed. I feel fatigued, but that could be from the autoimmune issues. Ice packs, iced drinks and pain meds are my friends.

Saturday, April 20, 2013

Day Two - The Calm Before the Storm?


To be honest, I am having a pretty good day; pain-wise. There is a great deal of swelling and scabbing and phlegm - my mouth is dry (mainly because I am  unable to breathe through my nose due to sinus inflammation), but the pain is more than tolerable. Again, the main issue - dry mouth.

My family taunted me with the smell of fresh baked cookies and other food related dainties, but I am not overly hungry or craving, at this time. Things taste thick and bland, like butter. I am still having trouble with juice simply flowing down my throat - it seems to want to take a detour through my nose. I am attributing that to my insanely swollen and out of place uvula. A low-grade fever is toying with me and confusing me (1200mg of Clindamycin daily). Lucy ran out to the store and got me some children's liquid tylenol which is hard to get down because of swelling and rerouting that happens.  I have been able to talk, not loud, but without too much pain. I am grateful for the oxycodone, except for the incessant itching that has not been alleviated with my strongest allergy medicine. I am itching from crown of my head to the soles of my feet, but no pain.

Funny moment
Grandson: Bubby, is your throat still soreded?
Me: It  isn't sore, but there are still some things that need to be taken care of before it is all better.
Grandson: Well, you still sound weird. Lucy, can you give something to bubby to make her voice all better?
Lucy: Like what, Pudty?
Grandson: Well, you can cook her something.
He believes food will fix everything - LOL

Friday, April 19, 2013

Day One - On a Scale From 1-10, I Give it a 5


Today was the BIG day. It began at 4:25am. I arrived at MCV Medical Center's Gateway Bldg at 5:45am (15 minutes later than expected). I checked in, Lucy received her pager (#186) and Larry called me to the back. He took my weight (OMG, I really need this Ice Diet) and led me to Room A9. I received my instructions, put on the lovely outfit that had been provided au gratis for the occasion, and Larry left the room. There were 6 washcloth size wipes that were to be used to 'wash' my neck, torso, abdomen, arms, legs and buttocks (this is a precautionary measure against infection). They even had a large heart-shaped bandage that the nurse, later, carefully placed at the small of my back (butt-top). She advised this was to protect the delicate skin during the tonsillectomy. The nurse asked a tremendous amount of health questions - the resident had me to sign my consent (again) and let me know to expect great pain for the next 2 weeks - the anesthesiologist went over how they would put me to sleep and keep me asleep (also, stating that I had so much scar tissue on my tonsils due to the chronic inflammation) and Dr. Reiter presented me with a beautiful blue bracelet proclaiming to everyone that I was to have a bilateral tonsillectomy, this morning. His bracelet complemented the green name tag and red allergy bands. What an ensemble which went wonderfully with the blue patterned hospital gown and the gray and white hospital footies, along with the blue bonnet! I looked a hot mess! LOL

The procedure lasted a little over an hour, I was given some Dilaudid and ice chips, Lucy was advised that the tonsil cyst was infected and would be biopsied and I was sent on my way between 11:00am and noon. We spent time getting my medication, liquid Oxycodone for pain (14 day supply) and an antibiotic - Clindamycin HCL 150mg (7 day supply, 8 pills a day) to stave off a post-operative infection. There were further instructions to lie down, today, and lift nothing heavier than a gallon of milk for the first 10 days.

Ice packs on my neck, a small pitcher filled with ice and water - the pain never went away, even with the high powered narcotic, but it has been tolerable. I rate today, 5 out of 10.

A Little Funny from My 3 Year Old Grandson -
Grandson: Lucy was right, you can't talk. What happened to your voice?
Me: The doctor took out my tonsils
Grandson: Well, the doctor should take them back in because your voice sounds weird. And Lucy can't hear you because she doesn't want to keep listening to your weirdness.
Me: What?
Grandson: She doesn't want to listen to you. When is that doctor going to give you your voice back, Bubby?

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Day Zero - The Day Before My Tonsillectomy


Well, I have decided to make some use of my recovery time and journal my experience of having a tonsillectomy at 45 years of age. I know this is not common, however, I have had more trouble than most with my tonsils down through the years -- plagued by tonsillitis, strep throat and tonsil stones -- lately, a large tonsil cyst that has been on my left tonsil since July 2012. I have been officially diagnosed as having 'hypertrophic tonsils and adenoids (laymen terms - tonsils that are always enlarged).

My surgery is at 7:30am, tomorrow morning (Fri., 4/19/13) with Dr. Reiter of MCV Medical Center in Richmond, VA. I hear he is one of the best. I will be his first patient of the day ... 'Yay, for me' ... which means that I have to arrive at the hospital at 5:30am! Not looking forward to that, at all. I know people think that I will be sedated, so it should not be too bad. For anyone who has been sedated, they can tell you that you do not feel like you have been asleep. It must be something with being forced to sleep and the body is not fully at rest. I don't really know ... I just know that I, usually, still feel tired after surgery.

One thing that I am looking forward to ... losing a bit of weight. I have officially dubbed this time of recovery, "The Ice Diet." We have approximately 40 lbs of ice designated for the first week -- to be used for cold beverages and smoothies, which I should be sipping during every waking moment (to avoid dehydration and other complications).

So, as soon as I am lucid and comfortably (and I use this term, lightly) tucked into my bed. I will let you know how I feel and any other details from the surgery. Do not worry, I will not be too graphic (unless asked).

Saturday, January 26, 2013

Beholden - Chapter Three


CHAPTER THREE

She became more and more displeased as she listened to the wedding planner drone on about the expense of the wedding. Granted, at the onset Analise Mitchell set a twenty-five thousand dollar budget for the big day, and now she was grossly over-budget – but, it was not Mitrice Reynolds’ problem. She was hired to do a job and managing her money was not it. This was her wedding and she would have everything she wanted no matter what it cost. She was only getting married once in her life and it was going to be perfect. She would have the one hundred Ecuadorian roses, even if it cost over fifteen hundred dollars to have them. Mitrice was overstepping her boundaries by advising that she went with some American roses, to bring the cost down. She stepped even further over the line asking her to reconsider the traveling top shelf bartender, as that three-thousand five-hundred dollar expense could be drastically reduced by eliminating the alcohol altogether.

“Mitrice, this is my wedding – not yours.”

“I know this, Analise. However, you hired me to plan this wedding with a budget in mind.”

“Forget the budget! Just do what I tell you to do and shut up about everything, else.” Analise walked across the sitting room and positioned herself in front of the desk.

Mitrice took a deep breath and uttered a quick prayer. “Fine, Analise.”

“Good. Now, let’s get back to the plans. We don’t have long; the wedding is in two weeks.” Analise smiled and made her way back to the sofa to sit next to Mitrice.

“The venue is established. We will have the decorators in Turner Hall on Thursday, the nineteenth, to set up for the wedding and the reception. The caterer is prepared for the rehearsal dinner on Friday, the twentieth,” Mitrice turned the pages of her planner as she spoke.

Analise smiled as she listened to Mitrice go on about the wedding. As her mind raced with the idea that she could have more, Ghrelin walked through the patio door and sat beside her on the sofa. She sighed at his closeness and the smile grew on her lips. Yes, she thought, I can have more. Ghrelin agreed with her. He gave her ideas and ways she could make it happen. Any inclination towards a new budget was melting away, as she entertained musings of just how grand her big day could be.

“I want theatrical lighting,” Analise burst out.

“Excuse me?” Mitrice asked.

“I want theatrical lighting as I come down the aisle. I want this moment to be surreal and dramatic. My entrance should be memorable and magical.”

Mitrice shook her head, imperceptibly. “Turner Hall can accommodate that, I am sure.”
Analise clapped her hands, together, and her eyes shone in delight. Ghrelin smiled. He was happy, as long as she was happy. He wanted her to want more. It gave him great pleasure to be a witness to her seemingly insatiable appetites. In fact, he was the one who coaxed her on. The two of them have been buddies since she was a little girl. Her parents catered to her every whim. The more she wanted, the more they gave her. The Mitchells withheld nothing from their little girl. She was their only child and she deserved the best things, in life.

Ghrelin introduced himself to Analise on her first day of school. Her mother dressed her in the finest clothes. She had the latest new thing in snacks, in her lunchbox. She had the prettiest pencils in her flowery pencil case. Ghrelin said hello to her as she looked at Patricia’s pink Barbie doll case. He saw the countenance on her face changed, as she became dissatisfied with what her parents had brought her. He agreed that she should be able to have two pencil cases; and looked around as she reached over to grab Patricia’s case, while the other children were lining up to go out for recess.

“I’m just going to look at it,” she told Ghrelin.

“I know, Analise. It is okay,” he assured her.

She slipped the pencil case into her backpack before skipping off to the playground. Ghrelin followed behind her as she headed toward the swings. She swung her legs, to get herself moving and he stood behind her to push her. They talked and giggled with each other, as the other children raced around the yard.

Once they returned inside and Patricia could not find her Barbie pencil case, Ghrelin looked at Analise and smiled. She was scared that Ghrelin would tell everyone that she had the pencil box. Instead, he put his finger to his mouth. Ms. Harris, the teacher, asked everyone if they had seen it. No one confessed, not even when Patricia cried. Harold volunteered to help her look for it when the teacher thought she might have taken it out on the playground. However, when the teacher’s assistant, Ms. Cora, walked them out the bigger kids were out there playing tag. They were racing back and forth so fast that Patricia was afraid they would hurt her. She told Ms. Cora that it did not matter, anymore. She would ask her mother and father for another one.

“Are you sure, sweetie?” Ms. Cora asked as she kneeled down beside her.

“Yes, it’s ok,” Patricia whimpered.

Ms. Cora took Patricia’s hand, then Harold’s, and headed back to the classroom. As they walked back in, Analise did not know what she was feeling. She knew she was afraid because she thought she could get into trouble for taking the pencil case. She knew she was not sorry about it, because she wanted it and there was no reason she shouldn’t have it. However, there was something else going on in her tummy. Something she had not felt before today.

Ghrelin was smiling at her. He would keep her secret, he whispered. When he said that, the feeling in her tummy went away. She was happy that he was able to make her feel better. From that moment on, they were inseparable. They played together, at school. He came over and played at her house. Her parents let him come with them on vacation. They shared many secrets and he never asked her for anything. He always encouraged her to strive for more. He stood by her throughout school, then on to college. He was her confidante and very best friend.

“Analise, have you heard anything I have been saying?” Mitrice asked.

“Whaa… What?”

“I am going to need a check for the additional funds needed to take care of the new additions you have requested.”

“Of course, you are. Hold on, let me go get my checkbook,” Analise scurried off to retrieve her purse out of her bedroom.

While Analise was out of the room, Ghrelin looked at Mitrice. He wondered why they had never had a personal conversation. She sat quietly on the sofa, looking through her planner and making notes. He could not read her. He did not talk to her because she seemed aloof and standoffish. On the many occasions they have had to converse, they never hit it off. She was a beautiful woman, with a good head on her shoulders. She was intelligent and confident in her abilities. He wondered why she was planning everyone’s wedding, except her own. She was a successful young woman, with her own business. Yet, there were no suitors - at least, none that he ever heard her speak about. Mitrice kept her thoughts to herself. He knew she grew pensive, from time to time, but she never voiced her musings around him or with Analise.

Ghrelin watched Mitrice out of the corner of his eye. He was searching for a conversation starting point, but there seemed to be none. He decided to take a wild guess and see if she had any secret aspirations that she wanted fed. He asked about her childhood. He asked about her college life. He asked about her relationships. They had nothing in common. At every turn, he grew quiet. He decided he would go into the bedroom to see what was keeping Analise. He got up from the sofa and walked toward the back of the house. He could hear her talking to someone on the phone.

“…yes, sweetie. We are getting the final touches completed on the wedding. I am just writing the check for the last minute expenses,” she was walking back and forth by the bedroom window.
Ghrelin stood outside the door. He never interrupted her when Miles was around. He knew people would think that once she became engaged that their relationship would change. In fact, it was quite the opposite. They were closer than ever. He knew his position and he did not overstep his place. He and Analise had been around one another long enough for him to know his role in her life. It was important for the two of them to maintain other relationships. She had Miles and he had … well, he had whomever he chose. The field was ripe with willing companions looking for intimacy on many levels. Some invited him home for a brief, but in-depth chat. While others, met him only in public and did not want to be alone with him. They needed someone to boost their confidence - someone to give permission to proceed when they grew cautious.

“The pastor wants to meet with us, tomorrow evening, for our final counseling session. He is certain we are as prepared as we can be for our marriage,” she advised. She twirled her hair as she talked with her fiancĂ©.

Ghrelin smiled. She became such a “girl” when she talked with Miles. Her voice grew light just as it had done when she talked to her father. He knew it was her way of convincing them of her dependence on them. To some degree, she did need them. She had needs and why should she be the one to foot the bill for them? When she used her soft voice with her father, he would give her anything she asked for, no matter the cost. She has been working on Miles for quite some time. He was not exactly her father, but she was not beyond calling him ‘daddy’ if that was going to accomplish her goal; a long time ago, she realized the best way to broach the subject of getting what she wanted with Miles. She was laying this foundation, right now. She wanted Miles to foot the bill for her overindulgence in the wedding plans. Sure, she would write the check, now. Nevertheless, later tonight she would ensure that she would get it all back.

“I am looking forward to seeing you, later, handsome,” she purred into the phone. “I miss your hands on my skin.”

The bait was being set. Ghrelin knew her tricks. He had taught her most of them. Over the years, she had asked for his opinion on such matters. He was eager to divulge any secrets he knew to help her obtain the objects of her desire. During college, they were a force to be reckoned with. There was no one who could resist it when they worked together and she had her heart or mind set on getting something.

Analise returned the phone to the receiver, grabbed her checkbook and walked out into the hall. She was not startled to see Ghrelin when she stepped outside of her bedroom door. They smiled at one another and walked back down the hall to the living room. They approached the sofa, together, smiling as if they had just shared a secret.

“I apologize for taking so long. I was on the phone with Miles, alerting him of the latest update on the wedding plans,” she sat down next to Mitrice.

“It is quite alright. I had a couple of things to jot down and a phone call to make, as well,” Mitrice answered, as she closed her planner.

Analise retrieved a pen off the coffee table and made out the check to Mitrice Reynolds. She ripped it out and handed it to the event planner.

“Thank you, Mitrice,” Analise stated as she rose and headed toward the front door.

Ghrelin just smiled at the snub. Analise never wasted time with those she thought was beneath her. Anyone in a service job, such as Mitrice, was there to do her bidding and nothing more. He often shook his head at the irony of her prejudice. To some, a biology teacher was a service job, no matter it was for honors students. However, Analise found a way to over-inflate her career choice. She was molding the minds of the future and preparing them to take their place in society. Yes, it was an honorable profession, yet she was just a part of the working class as those she chose to rebuff.
Mitrice took no offense at the apparent and rude dismissal. She could not take Analise seriously. She did not entertain her ignorant gestures of grandeur. She simply placed the check into her briefcase, along with her planner, grabbed her purse and took her leave. She had too much to do to allow this to deter her. She walked down the front porch and up the driveway to her car. She reached into her suit jacket pocket, pulled out her keys and pressed the remote entry button to unlock the doors. She placed her briefcase on the backseat, closed the door and stepped inside. The stillness of the car’s cabin was a relief. There was so much going on, in the atmosphere of Analise’s home. She could feel her spirit’s uneasiness each time she stepped foot across the threshold; and she always welcomed the fresh air when she left. She leaned her head back against the leather headrest and quietly prayed. This had become her custom after her departure from her clients. She would not allow the atmosphere from one person to hitchhike with her to another appointment.

She prayed until her spirit was at rest and she felt the tension leave her body. She put the key into the ignition, looked into the rearview mirror and slowly backed out of the driveway, turning left to head up Heatherdowns Lane toward North Brodrecht Road. She needed a change of scenery. She wanted to ride through the countryside and knew just the place that could allow that to happen - the Shenandoah Riding Center. She had a favorite horse, which the owners always made available for her, if she alerted them of her intentions. She pushed the button on her dash and called out “Shenandoah Riding Center” to dial the number by voice command. She listened to the ring, hoping no one had taken the horse out this afternoon.

“Shenandoah Riding Center, Connie speaking,” the woman answered professionally.

“Hello Connie, this is Mitrice Reynolds. I am heading your way and hoping that Buttercup is available for a ride, this afternoon.”

“Yes, she is available, Ms. Reynolds. When can I expect you?” Connie inquired.

“I am in the neighborhood, just leaving a client’s home. I can be there in less than five minutes. I hope this isn’t too short of notice,” Mitrice crossed her fingers.

“No, not at all, Ms. Reynolds. I will have the stable-hand prepare her for your arrival.”

Mitrice thanked Connie and they ended the call. When she arrived at the corner of Heatherdowns Lane and North Brodrecht Road, she made a right and headed toward the center.

Friday, January 25, 2013

Beholden - Chapter Two


CHAPTER TWO

The atmosphere, in the car, belied the message they just heard preached by Pastor Zeke. The tension and anxiety was thick and palpable. Katriel removed her iPod from her purse and put the ear buds into her ears. She turned the volume up just enough to drown out her father’s words. She hated when he was like this, especially after church service. She had been feeling a bit hopeful listening to the sermon on love and its unconditional nature. She wanted to believe that there was such a thing out there in the world, because she sure as hell did not recognize it in her own home. She could not understand what her father had to be angry about, this morning. Breakfast was prepared and still hot when he made it to the table, prior to them leaving for church. Her mother had seemed to be in a good mood despite the fact that she had an emergency surgery to perform in the wee hours of the morning. She could not have had more than two hours of sleep before taking up her place in the kitchen to prepare the morning meal. Katriel felt good about the day…but her father quickly snatched the joy right out of the air.

“I don’t understand why they could not have called another surgeon in to do the procedure. You mean to tell me that you are the only pediatric cardiologist at Mercy Medical Center, Nora?” The venom in Gavin’s voice was evident.

“Like I told you, Gavin, the little girl is my patient. Of course, they would not call another surgeon in to take care of her. It is my responsibility,” Nora’s words were soft.

“You seem to have quite a list of patients, Nora. What kind of doctor can you be, if all of the children you care for need so much attention? Can’t you do anything right?”

Nora remained silent. She hated when Gavin was like this. His words were intentionally hurtful and mean. She spoke a silent prayer asking God to eradicate the effects of his words. She knew she was a good doctor and surgeon. She knew that he was just acting this way because the call came in after they had gone to bed and it disturbed his rest. She knew he could not mean what he was saying …he was just angry. She turned her head to look out of the passenger side window. They had been sitting at a light and she realized the people in the car next to them could hear Gavin. The woman looked pitiably in her direction, and then sped off once the light turned green.

“I know you hear me talking to you, Nora. You better give me an answer. What the hell did you do to that little girl that required her to need emergency surgery in the middle of the night? You’re a quack! I don’t understand how you keep your job,” he spat the words, like a bitter gall, in her direction.

“Gavin, she has a grave condition called aortic valve insufficiency…” Nora began.

“Don’t come at me with those grand diagnoses, Nora. It does not concern me what she has, just that you are the one caring for her and she is not getting any better.”

Nora sighed and gave up the illusion that she could convince her husband. It had been a long while, if
ever, since she could say anything that would sway him one way or the other. She returned her attention to the passing landscape. She resisted the urge to cry. It would only make things worse. She felt most sad that Katriel, their sixteen-year-old daughter, had to be a witness to her father’s tirades. She did not want her child to grow up in an environment as she did. Her mother and father were constantly at war with each other, when she was younger. Both gave to fits of rage and she could not wait until she could get out from under their roof. There was not a day that went by that did not end with her parents being at each other’s throat. One or the other had a bad day at work, which spawned a torrential and heated debate between the two of them. Her mother slammed pots and pans while her father slammed doors and she would sit quietly in her room waiting for one of them to yell out her name for some reason or other.

An ominous silence filled the rest of the ride home. Gavin was seething, as he made his way down the street to their home. He just wanted some peace, in his life. His job, as chief of police, was stressful enough. He had a bunch of idiots working under him and he had an incompetent wife with a grandiose profession. It embarrassed him that she could not do her job well enough. He was sure their friends and neighbors knew she was called to the hospital at all hours of the night. He was also certain that they knew it was because she did not do her job right the first time, which was the cause of so many trips to Mercy. For all he knew, she did this on purpose just so she did not have to be at home taking care of her responsibilities. He should not have to be disturbed by the incessant buzzing of her beeper or her hushed tones on the phone when speaking to the after-hours receptionist. He needed his sleep if he was to perform his duties at work and her job was keeping him from getting it. His lack of sleep made him irritable and she knew it.

He turned into the Eagle Ridge subdivision and made his way to their home on Long Creek Lane. He pressed the remote to have the garage door open before turning into the driveway. He eased his car into the empty space, next to Nora’s, put the car in ‘park’ and turned it off. After pulling the key out of the ignition, he turned to his wife and sighed. She knew not to get out of the car until he was ready. He just looked at her, in disgust. He remembered when things were much simpler. They dated throughout college. He was a criminal justice major and she was working toward her doctorate. She was the older woman that caught his attention on campus. She walked with an air of confidence that intrigued him. He told his frat brothers that he was going to have her and they laughed him to shame. He proved them wrong and he was the one laughing when it was all said and done. He had persuaded her to allow him to take her to dinner, one autumn evening. He knew he was charming and had a way to make any woman feel good about herself. Even if he did not believe what he was saying, he could convince them to believe it. He really did a number on Nora.

She quickly turned the tables on him and got herself pregnant. He should have known she was the type that wanted to trap a good man, like himself. He did the honorable thing and married her to keep her quiet. She nagged him about being an unwed mother, and how that would hurt her parents. She should have thought about that before she engaged in unprotected sex, with him. He never understood why she wasn’t on birth control, in the first place. She had the unmitigated gall to expect him to wear a condom. He insisted that he would not get any pleasure out of the deal, wearing one of those, and he refused every time. She was so selfish. None of the other girls complained about it, he did not know why she was making such a big deal. The only thing he could think of was that she was only concerned about her own orgasm. She knew he came faster without one, he told her so. It was no surprise to him when she blamed him for her unplanned pregnancy, but he quickly let her know who was to blame. It was her fault, not his.

When Katriel was born, Nora had finished her finals and was preparing for residency. There was no way she could keep those hours and care for a newborn, so her parents suggested that they move in with them and they would take on the responsibility of caring for the baby. Gavin was furious at the notion and even angrier when Nora agreed. He thought she should have given up her idea of becoming a doctor once they had gotten married and Katriel appeared. He was finishing graduate school and accepted into the police academy, which was used as part of her argument why moving in with her parents was a good idea. It would allow them to pursue their dreams with assurance that Katriel well taken care of by people who loved her. When he suggested that Nora stay home with the baby, she flat out refused. She asserted that her having a baby did not warrant such a drastic decision. She had been working toward becoming a doctor since she began high school and she was too close to give that up. He told her that she should have thought about that before getting herself knocked up. She gave him an incredulous look and walked out of the room. She learned that day not to walk away from him.

Despite his objections, Nora did not quit her job and they moved in with her parents so her parents could care for the baby. He had to admit, if only to himself, that this arrangement worked out for the best. He did not have to concern himself with a crying baby and Nora’s residency hours left him plenty of time to do what he wanted. He spent many nights out drinking with his fellow academy mates and they spent most of those nights carousing with young, impressionable girls. Just because Nora wanted to be bound by the sanctity of marriage and monogamy, it did not mean that was the life for him. He was still young and in his prime; one woman was not enough for him, he needed more. And, more is what he had gotten. He did not know how many women he let ride him in the back of his car, and he didn’t care. Also, not one time did they request he wear a condom, as his wife had done back in college. Besides, Nora was too busy with rounds that she did not have the time to satisfy him, so what was a man to do?

He smiled, to himself, at the memory. He looked back on his academy days, often. He was top of his class and his instructors advised he would go far. He aspired to be commissioner, someday, but he first had to endure the process. He hated having to walk the beat early in his career. He had hoped that rite of passage would have been extinct before he would have to do it. He hated the elderly women looking down at him and advising that he should be doing more to keep their streets safe. He took his anger out on the street thugs who thought they were tough. He would usher them into the nearest alley and give them a beat down with his nightstick. It was rare that he made an arrest, because he didn’t want them complaining to higher ups, so he warned them and sent them on their way. He shook down the local drug dealer, confiscating his goods and distributing them amongst his comrades. He became very familiar with the local prostitutes, as well. There was never a shortage of eager women willing to do anything to not be taken down and booked at the precinct.
Katriel ended his reverie. “Can we get out of the car, now?”

“Get out!” He barked.

Once inside, Katriel proceeded up the stairs to her bedroom and closed the door. She did not want to be bothered with the foolishness that had become her parents. She could not wait until she finished high school and could leave the confines of this house. She worked hard not to hate her father and even harder to not think her mother weak. She did not understand why she tolerated her father’s constant railing. Her mother was a successful surgeon. She made plenty of money and could easily survive without her father’s income. Sure, he made a decent living, but he was not the breadwinner of the family. She knew that had to grate on him. The fact that a woman made more money than him had to be degrading. He walked around their house as if he was the king of the castle and her mother allowed it. Her mother never threw it up in her father’s face that her salary trumped his. She could have, but never did. Katriel did not think she would have let an opportunity go by without reminding him that he was not needed to sustain this household. For this reason, she was going to make sure that she and her husband were on equal terms, financially. No one would be able to lord anything over the other one. Moreover, even though her father did not earn respect, her mother always gave it to him anyway.

Katriel threw herself onto her bed and looked out of the window. She heard her mother’s footsteps coming up their stairway and hoped she was not heading to her room. She hated it when she wanted to excuse and apologize for her father’s behavior. It was not for her to do. He should be the one making amends and smoothing things over. She remembered the pastor talking about how the husband was supposed to love the wife as Christ loved the church. She did not believe her father loved her mother. He tolerated her and that infuriated Katriel. How dare he think he deserved the love and respect her mother wasted on him. He did nothing to earn it. He was constantly degrading her and belittling her contribution to the staff at Mercy. He was not the doting husband of an acclaimed pediatric cardiologist. Instead, he was the tyrant of 7 Long Creek Lane. He patrolled the rooms of this house, as if he patrolled the streets back in the day. He ranted and raved. He flailed and flung. He stormed and raged. He was pathetic. Her mother had to know it, yet she never showed it. She tolerated his tantrums and appeased the spoiled beast.

She breathed a sigh of relief when she heard the door of her parents’ bedroom close. Her mother was probably crying or praying. Katriel was sure that was the only thing that kept her feet planted in this marriage – prayer. She wondered how much relief she could really be getting from it, when it seemed like there was no change. Did God even hear her? Her father appeared to be getting worse by the day. There were times when she hoped he would be killed on the job. She felt bad for thinking such a terrible thing about her father, but she could not help it. He didn’t deserve to be breathing the same air as those who sought to make life better for those around them. He swore to uphold justice in the world, yet he was the source of all the injustice that happened within these four walls. Why couldn’t someone just put a bullet in his head? She knew he had to have a multitude (or gaggle, as her mom would say) of enemies out there who wished for his demise. She and her mom would be much better off if he was not in the picture.

Gavin closed the door to his study and walked over to the bar. He poured himself a glass of Angel’s Envy bourbon and sat down in his leather recliner. He turned to look out onto expansive lawn in the back of his house. The patio was just off to the left and he caught sight of the fire pit and chairs surrounding it. He walked out into the yard, through the glass doors, and headed toward the seats. He thought of starting a fire and decided against it – it was too hot. He eased himself onto one of the lounge chairs and put his feet up. He sensed a presence behind him and turned to see Mavet standing close by.

“She doesn’t get it, does she Gavin?” Mavet asked, as he sat in nearby chair.

“No,” Gavin sipped his drink.

“I understand.”

“I know you do. You seem to be the only one who does,” he downed the rest of the bourbon, closed his eyes and sighed.

Mavet drew closer. “Talk to me, Gavin.”

He allowed his anger to spill out of him, in a rush. He opened up, exposing all of his inner turmoil and rage. He enjoyed the license Mavet gave him and he took the opportunity to bare his soul.